I was asked who influenced me to go into my current career, and got to thinking. My whole life, people with good intentions, some with not so good intentions as well, influenced me. However, the majority lacked the ability to communicate and see past their limitations and their judgments. All but my dad. He began speaking to me in positive ways. He refused to let me and my sister say “I can’t.” He forbade complaining beyond a simple statement. This was the beginning. He planted seeds at a very young age. Letting us know our beliefs were just that, beliefs. Not all of them are true. He supported us as a parent and a friend in ways that most people didn’t. He spoke to us in an adult manner and taught us to ask questions. He led by example and taught us how to communicate effectively. Throughout my struggles and successes, we ended up teaching each other a lot of lessons. Along with the lessons he helped lead me to becoming my most authentic self. He showed me new ways to tap into my mind, body, and spirit. He included my sister and many others in his journey towards a life of joy. He emulates all the qualities and values I hold dear. So when I think about influences, my dad is first on my mind. Another important influence was my mom. She showed me a strength I never would’ve known until I saw it in her first. She showed me how to fight for yourself when it seems the world is against you. She showed me that even when you struggle, and fight for the things you believe in, love always what wins. These experiences have guided me on my journey. I have moved beyond my comfort zone with her and anyone else who challenged the belief that I’m lovable. I decided to move ahead in a career that is based on self love. Where you challenge and reprogram old beliefs. Where you learn how to regulate your nervous system. Where you connect with people who are on the same path. I believe my purpose was to struggle, learn, love and then show others how to do the same. I am writing a new story. I have created a new life, with new believes and they’re all coming together in the most fantastic ways. I am more than grateful. I fuckin love it here!
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Sharing Thoughts
At my favorite coffee shop, I sit here on my computer, sipping my coffee. I hear music in the background. The sound of cars zipping by on the freshly rained on street accompanies the music. The calm sets in. I love these days. My cup is overflowing, no more half full anything. I am so grateful for all the ways my life has changed. Through the struggles I have encountered, I came to know my strengths. I came to know a version of me that I never knew. I am able to just be. The calm of the life I have now is irreplaceable.
I had a moment today when I didn’t feel like doing a damn thing. That moment was short lived. You see, when I started on this journey, I made some promises to myself. One of them is to always keep my promises. I started this blog and writing consistently because I wanted to grow in new ways. I always said, ” I’m not a writer” then I thought why not? Who the hell told me I wasn’t? I may not be the best at it. However, it is something I enjoy. It is a skill that I’m working on in different ways. The moment I didn’t want to do a damn thing I reminded myself of my promise. I reminded myself how good it feels to complete the things you start. I hold myself accountable, even in the moments when I don’t feel like it. I believe all our thoughts and ideas deserve a space outside of our head. I recognize my thoughts in this way. This acknowledgment also gives me permission to release the shit that isn’t serving me any longer. They say that the average person has around 6000 thoughts a day. A lot of those thoughts carry charged emotions. What better way to send off some unwanted stuff then writing it down. So far, the thoughts I’ve had today are about sharing. Sharing some of the shit that comes to my mind. About moving through the emotions that come with being a human that may overthink things sometimes. I share with others that there are days I don’t want to do a damn thing. But I do it anyway because it will feel good. I share that there are days when old fears set in. I remind myself that I am where I am today, because I face my fears head on. We don’t fold around here, we keep it moving. I share that because I never gave up on myself, I have become the love I was always searching for. I share with you to look within; you’ll find all the answers and all the courage you’ll ever need. I share with you these thoughts because maybe someone needed to hear today that it’s ok to have fear. It’s ok to overthink, and it’s ok to not want to do a damn thing. Take care of yourself. Feel free to share your thoughts with me, I’d love to hear them.
The Journey Continues 