Sharing Thoughts

At my favorite coffee shop, I sit here on my computer, sipping my coffee. I hear music in the background. The sound of cars zipping by on the freshly rained on street accompanies the music. The calm sets in. I love these days. My cup is overflowing, no more half full anything. I am so grateful for all the ways my life has changed. Through the struggles I have encountered, I came to know my strengths. I came to know a version of me that I never knew. I am able to just be. The calm of the life I have now is irreplaceable.

I had a moment today when I didn’t feel like doing a damn thing. That moment was short lived. You see, when I started on this journey, I made some promises to myself. One of them is to always keep my promises. I started this blog and writing consistently because I wanted to grow in new ways. I always said, ” I’m not a writer” then I thought why not? Who the hell told me I wasn’t? I may not be the best at it. However, it is something I enjoy. It is a skill that I’m working on in different ways. The moment I didn’t want to do a damn thing I reminded myself of my promise. I reminded myself how good it feels to complete the things you start. I hold myself accountable, even in the moments when I don’t feel like it. I believe all our thoughts and ideas deserve a space outside of our head. I recognize my thoughts in this way. This acknowledgment also gives me permission to release the shit that isn’t serving me any longer. They say that the average person has around 6000 thoughts a day. A lot of those thoughts carry charged emotions. What better way to send off some unwanted stuff then writing it down. So far, the thoughts I’ve had today are about sharing. Sharing some of the shit that comes to my mind. About moving through the emotions that come with being a human that may overthink things sometimes. I share with others that there are days I don’t want to do a damn thing. But I do it anyway because it will feel good. I share that there are days when old fears set in. I remind myself that I am where I am today, because I face my fears head on. We don’t fold around here, we keep it moving. I share that because I never gave up on myself, I have become the love I was always searching for. I share with you to look within; you’ll find all the answers and all the courage you’ll ever need. I share with you these thoughts because maybe someone needed to hear today that it’s ok to have fear. It’s ok to overthink, and it’s ok to not want to do a damn thing. Take care of yourself. Feel free to share your thoughts with me, I’d love to hear them.